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31.7.04
track nats
counting: none for today


What Name Should You Have? by Lauren


went to track nationals on wednesday to support my school. was v. exciting except it kept raining so all of us had to move in and out of the stadium to avoid getting drenched. alot of schools were there and the biggest contingent was cedar, they sent like the whole school down to support. so their cheering was v. loud and all of them were pretty enthu. was kinda overwhelmed cause our school people were mostly there to get an activity point and we were naturally not as loud as them. dint really stick around for the prize giving so am not sure about my school's placement but i know for sure that singapore sports school won. it's sooo unfair! think they should really not be allowed to compete. they like train everyday or sth? sigh. but think cedar got second? haish. wtv. just am proud of candice and abby.found this really realistic lyric on some stranger's blog:

Thousand Foot Krutch: This is a Call
She fooled all of
her friends, Into thinking she's so strong, But she still sleeps with the light
on, And she acts like it's all right on, As she smiles again Her mother lies
there sick with cancer, And her friends don't understand her, She's a question
without answers, Who feels like falling apart She knows, she's so much more than
worthless, But she needs to find her purpose, She wonders what she, did to
deserve this
She's calling out to You, This is a call; this is a call out,
'Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you. And I'm losing all control
now, And my hazard signs are all out, I'm asking you, to show me what this life,
is all about
He tells everyone a story, Because he feels his life is boring,
And he lies, so you won't ignore him, Because that's his biggest fear And he
cries, but you'll rarely see him do it, He loves, but he's scared to use it, So
he hides behind the music, Cause he likes it that way
He knows, he's so much
more than worthless, He needs to find the surface, Because he's, starting to get
nervous
Have you ever felt this way before? Cause I don't want to hide here
anymore, Take me to a place where nothing's wrong, and, Thanks for coming, shut
the door They say someone out there sees us, Well if you're real then save me
Jesus, Cause I've been this way, for far too long, I wasn't meant, to feel
alone
oh yah. happy birthday to siqian!

go to, then; your considerate stone.
5:36 PM
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27.7.04
she will be loved
counting: tests left: still 1 weight: 60kg (feels like, due to cake eaten yesterday)
listening: maroon 5's harder to breathe
blah. am supposed to be studying for chem quiz on periodic table and calculation for tomorrow but i just cant bring myself to face all the mountains of chem stuff. eeks. my chem seriously suck. sorry mrs kang but am just not a chemy person. anyways am addicted to maroon5. kept visiting their website. hurmph. i really like she will be loved. damn damn cool. urgh. want the cd!! think will update my wishlist. btw just found out shin jung writes really profound stuff. cant stand it. feel depressed. >.<

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

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5:41 PM
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26.7.04
insensitive
counting: no. of test left this wk:1
heh.am talking in a funny language. have no clue why. it's like i have suddenly decided typing "i" every now and then is too troublesome so have decided to start every sentence with am and have. hmm. am too influenced by bridget jone's diaries. have just finished reading edge of reason which is diary no. 2. plot a bit warped but will concede its entertainingness makes up for warped plot. oh yah. must talk about racial harmony (21st july, wed). in the morning had the usual concert and stuff and it wasnt all that great but i quite enjoyed the food. oh and was wearing this.. erm. wraparound skirt thingie had borrowed from bei and a 50 bucks top from u2 my mum had bought previously with a 20% discount. am not kidding either, think still have the tag to prove it. but wtv, that's not the point. the point is, after school i met bren and jieying (and a bunch of their classmate whom i know, but not personally) for lunch (had been hoping that it'll be a clique lunch but was greatly disappointed). had arrived outside far east when saw this amusing and traumatising sight: some girl from my school was carrying an umbrella (although it wasn raining) over the super enthu buckle comm member's head (eunice-whatshername). and the girl carrying the umbrella looked like she was some servant cause she had her head bowed and was walking behind eunice while the eunice psn was just sauntering away in her chinese minority group like costume. *shudders. thank goodness neither of them was in school uniform or else if someone from the public informs my school about it dtan will have a fit. i know that it's a prank but still.. it's just too over the top. >.<. ***

i really find it weird. it's like 2 yrs ago i was the only one who knew her and now all of them are practically inseparable. it's like they are what we were before. it feels strange to see that. i know they are classmates now and all but if they really wanted to go for lunch together, they should at least tell me so when i asked them if they wanted to go for a clique lunch. me and bren feel pretty disappointed. it's like we've been taken for granted. i dun like it. i bet u wun like it either if u see ur cliquers just walking in front of u with another bunch of people and going for lunch with them instead of u. felt even more saddened when they stopped and turned around and we thought they were going to wait for us to catch up and maybe give us some explanation but all they were doing was waiting for her to catch up. u cant tell me i am not justified to feel disappointed with them. nobody likes to feel like they've been taken for granted. or maybe i should just stop been such a blind and romantic psn. it's only caused me a major heartbreak. i should just face up to reality. and the reality is that people change. people grow apart and become tired of each other. that's the way of life. but still.. it really really hurts. to be slighted by the people u've regarded as best friends for 2 years. if i were more emotional i would be on the verge of tears now. but wtv. know what's really bad too? knowing that u cant bring urself to slight them back simply because once upon a time u have regarded them as best friends and they probably did too. DAMN IT.how can u be so insensitive?




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12:51 PM
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24.7.04
fickleness
counting: number of days to physics test: 2 panic level: 5/10 weight: 47kg (no good, will go on healthy diet)
ok. have decided will change to blogger now. haish. just when i've made myself nice dx templates too. >.<>
  1. iceborn
  2. graffitize
  3. sunfish

am depressed at my fickleness. eeks.



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11:14 AM
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in the beginning

am fascinated by the new blogger and its fascinating features. i can even post images up here! cool. am most probably switching back to this. dang. am wishing i wasnt so fickle minded about this. have switched blogs 4 times now. oops!


me
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sunfish.




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10:53 AM
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